Looking for the “It”

mandala-3166158I have been pondering what the “it” is after reading a post several weeks back from a fellow blogger.  We all wonder at times, what is life really about anyway?  I wrote the following poem with how I respond to that question…..

The “It”

She wanted to know what the “it” was

A fair question to be pondered on a blog

Several commenters responded “YES, YES, where is the It?

It escapes me!

 

I sigh

The same question dodged me in my younger years

But with six decades behind me, I know the It

For it is hard to recognize and often takes the passing of time

It can pass right under you like a tsunami in the open ocean

A lulling swell that will gently rock your boat

As it heads toward land to release its energy

 

Children know the It

It is in curiosity

In play

In friends and in family

In greeting each day like an adventure

 

It is in nature

And the spirit that resides there and within

It is in risk

And creative expression

Love, giving

 

It is in the individual footsteps one’s journey

Not the destination

Just remember

Look up from your feet

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Awakening My Inner Gardener

IMG_0433It seems like just yesterday I was pulling out spent tomato plants & putting the garden tools away for the winter.  But here we are again- Spring and my inner gardener is awakened again.

SEED CATALOGS
They arrive like expected guests
In the days after the New Year
A steady parade of seed catalogs
All shapes and sizes
From varying corners of the country
Filled with beckoning colored photographs
Of fruit, vegetable, & bloom waiting to fill the garden
Ready to awaken the winter-weary to a fresh frame of mind
The possibilities of the planting season.

Continue reading “Awakening My Inner Gardener”

Daily Visitor

 

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The once elusive stray cat we had named “Phantom” that lives under our house has warmed to us.  Her nightly visits for food has turned to a several-times-a-day occurrence.  Yesterday she was following us around the yard.  As she has outlived her name we now call her “Lizzie.”  I find her a delight and a great subject for art pieces.  Someday I hope to pet her on my lap.  For more on our stray cats, see my Stray Cat post.

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The stray cat cries pitifully at the door

waiting to be fed

a feast of canned food atop dry

with a tiny bowl of fresh cream.

As she eats hungrily

I feel bones protruding

from the soft fur of her small body.

She purrs

Staying Tuned to The Muse

 

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“Wild Birds in My Head”  by the author

I’m always staying tuned for ideas (see my post “Where my Ideas Come From”  ) but sometimes they pursue me- relentlessly.  Think about wild birds flapping in your head endlessly or like someone tugging on your apron strings constantly.  Yes, the ruckus will go away eventually, but not entirely.  The inspiration will just go to someone else to be manifested and then pretty soon your muse will give up on you all together and you will be very lonely.

WRITE ME

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The poem tugged on my apron strings

Begging for attention

When I ignored it

It crept into the kitchen of my mind

Rattling the pots and pans with such a clatter

I could bear it no longer

“Stop!”I cried

“Don’t you know I wasn’t an English major?”

“Find someone else to write you!”

But the poem persisted with such a fuss

That I relented,

Sat down and wrote it,

Then kicked it out the door to the internet

Sighing with relief

Until I felt another tug

on my apron strings.

Poetry Readings & ADD

‘Well, write poetry, for God’s sake, it’s the only thing that matters.’

e. e. cummings

I’ve been writing poetry as a practice for over a year now.  It seemed to be a natural progression to attend poetry readings.  My first was in November and then I attended two this past weekend as part of a local poetry festival.  I haven’t been very successful thus far.

As I’ve aged, I’ve become increasingly ADD.  Sitting and listening for long stretches of time is torturous.  When I was teaching middle school, I always kept in mind those students like me, varying activities & interspersing periods of moving around in the classroom. In the adult world, most of the time there are not those opportunities.

Luckily at the end of both readings I attended this weekend, the poets were very animated, funny and irreverent, and provided material I could relate to.

Here is a glimpse into an ADD brain during a poetry reading……

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The speaker’s words begin to melt together

the chair feels increasingly uncomfortable

my lower back aches

I sit up straight, change position

Then as I close my sleepy eyes

I feel the secret portal of my brain woosh shut

allowing no more in

Come on, you can do this, I say to myself

Too late.  

Words, sentences, phrases rain down on me

shedding like water off a duck’s back

forming rivulets, then puddles at my feet, then rivers

that flow into the vast ocean of uncomprehended language

I nudge my friend in the seat to my left

I’m done, I say

She says, one more speaker then we get tamales

I sigh and wait for the tamales.

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Watching the Winter Olympics

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Is it just me?  or maybe it’s because this is the first time in a few years we have gotten Channel 8, the channel that broadcasts the Olympics.  Whatever the case, I have been spending an inordinate amount of time viewing the Olympics in Peyong Chang and have been so impressed!  (I sketch on the commercials.)

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in my warm house

those athletes a world away

flying through the air

turning and turning

head over heels

sliding and spinning

on boards and blades

I am awed

and amazed

me

who never learned to do a cartwheel

does them now on the couch

each time they land

with their Olympic smiles

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Weekly Photo Challenge- Beloved, There’s No Place Like Home

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Spring 2011

This year marks the 25th anniversary of living in my home, a 100-year-old farmhouse in rural Oregon.  When I moved in May of 1993 with my then husband and 6-year old son, I thought we had made a huge mistake.  It was overgrown, musty and dirty from the previous owners who smoked. The interior was dark and depressing (it doesn’t get worse than old brown shag carpet).  We froze the first two winters.  Over the years lots of changes were made mostly by our own hands.  The place is now warm, bright, & inviting.  The now ex-husband departed years ago for a younger model and a better man has been with me for the last 18 years   My son has grown up and made a life for himself.  In the meantime, my roots have grown deep here.  This is my beloved home.

 

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Farmhouse

I have no granite countertops

nor hardwood floors

an old white electric range

and portable dishwasher

do the cooking and the dishes

 

The floral wallpaper

peeling in places lines the walls

above the yellow wainscot

A shiny red woodstove

on a brick hearth

warms the large kitchen

 

The floor plan is ramshackle

added on as the needs of owners changed

during 100 years of occupation

 

More than a house

it is a vessel of memories

of people’s lives

including my own

 

Some would call it out of date

I would agree

but I like out of date

memories of simpler times

when life moved slower

the center of activity the kitchen

rather than an electric device

 

Yes, I don’t have granite countertops

nor hardwood floors

but the food here is good

and the table invites one to sit 

for a cup of tea and conversation

 

I go about my tasks with contentment

and with satisfaction

knowing that this is the place

I call home

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Bandit & Dougan

Beloved